Still having my finals week~ But it's okay~
3 more days to go, 2 more paper to fight~
I can still handle it I guess, yeah....I GUESS~
I keep myself busy for quite a long while~
and busy is not tat bad sometimes....it helps~
Once I slow down my pace...
I realized, I've missed out quite a number of memories that I should have, or even someone that I could share my everything~
Well, I always not the one who will take the initiatives....and this is definitely stick with my mindset~ No, means no~
Someone may say, why am I, so cruel, stupid or watever negative term that they think is suitable to describe...
but do believe that, everyone does something with a motive, purpose.....but not all the time, I know.....
A lot of counterfactual thinking fill in my mind..... and I think.... I juz good in creating imagination~
no more.....
second chance.........
Thursday, December 11, 2008
Wednesday, December 3, 2008
~All the matters of, communication~
Is always a poor thing that I am here again...
Sometimes frenz were asking why am I having two blogs at the same time?
I have my good reasons but I wil never tell~
Well, tomorrow has an assignment due date and now Dr.Goh is lecturing but yet, I can still multitasking like what am I doing right now....
It's been I while that I was being negative....
Since the days I cried inside the toilet after the phone called and talked with the two sisters, Jungle was back again, the positive one.
Tried to avoid calls to prevent myself not getting any negative influences.
and it works, I feel better...and everyday thinking of something happy that glad the existence of me made changes.
and I tried new things, like learn new dance that I ever tried before...
but there are something that I feel sick of...again, human being is always need to communicate...and conflicts occured once we disconnected to others and not communicate to each other.
That's y I talk, no matter there are happy things to share with, or the hurdles I meet in the midway of some progress, or express my own feelings and thoughts....etc...etc.....i juz talk......
the moment i lost the ability how to talk, is when I feel helpless and wondering why all these things happened? and....thinking am I juz did a mistake?
so I scared when someone juz doesnt wan to talk to me and I totally have no idea why? even if tat's really my mistakes, I wil stil love to talk instead of long stupid silence or juz walked away like nobody business. of coz...it is especially for someone who I really care........
Silence kills me...
Like a human urge to breathe to get oksigen.
everything will stil turn better, but the process of it, is never be easy.....
once I never talk, I wil never be okay.....
Sometimes frenz were asking why am I having two blogs at the same time?
I have my good reasons but I wil never tell~
Well, tomorrow has an assignment due date and now Dr.Goh is lecturing but yet, I can still multitasking like what am I doing right now....
It's been I while that I was being negative....
Since the days I cried inside the toilet after the phone called and talked with the two sisters, Jungle was back again, the positive one.
Tried to avoid calls to prevent myself not getting any negative influences.
and it works, I feel better...and everyday thinking of something happy that glad the existence of me made changes.
and I tried new things, like learn new dance that I ever tried before...
but there are something that I feel sick of...again, human being is always need to communicate...and conflicts occured once we disconnected to others and not communicate to each other.
That's y I talk, no matter there are happy things to share with, or the hurdles I meet in the midway of some progress, or express my own feelings and thoughts....etc...etc.....i juz talk......
the moment i lost the ability how to talk, is when I feel helpless and wondering why all these things happened? and....thinking am I juz did a mistake?
so I scared when someone juz doesnt wan to talk to me and I totally have no idea why? even if tat's really my mistakes, I wil stil love to talk instead of long stupid silence or juz walked away like nobody business. of coz...it is especially for someone who I really care........
Silence kills me...
Like a human urge to breathe to get oksigen.
everything will stil turn better, but the process of it, is never be easy.....
once I never talk, I wil never be okay.....
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