~Secrets...hard to keep~

When there is no way that allowed me to walk on, here am I...

It's been a while, here, has been abandoned by the OrangeJungle~

But no matter how, here is still the place that allow the jungle to escape, even just for a little short while~

Yeah...I had bad days...

when I found myself be the useless one, when I realized that I'm the one who messed everything up~ ...... I do not know, what are the feelings inside of me. Disappointed? Helpless? or juz simple depressed?

Not that easy I would say...

Having said that, coz I'm a complicated and unpredictable creature....

I having tough times, during this critical period...
I tot I can handle it quite well,
I tot what else that I never been through?

but things juz happened and it never allows me to get ready to face all these....

I wish I was there but I was not and I couldn't.
I wish things never happened but yet this is always a dream for me and haunted me in my dreamlands....
I wish everyone can juz understand what I had been gone through but there're somethings that I shouldn't tell.

Not tat I wan to go through all these all alone. No one likes to being alone.
I know Im not alone, that's the only thing I appreciated my existence.

The history, made me...
The stories, was killing me...

Long journey to go, but I start to curious when and where is the end of my journey?

I juz want to breathe...
but I know it wont be until I know how to communicate...
How to lead myself out of my way and find a bright way...
How to walk through...
How to cure.....

I have a plan...
I wan to run far far away...

It's okay if there is no one beside me and trying to be supportive...
sometimes things, is still better to keep for ourselves....

That's y secret is beautiful with the unknowns...